Beauty

You turn on the tv and a commercial comes on. It shows naked women that are wearing frilly bras, feathery wings, and rather diaphanous lacy underwear. You need that cute bra. You will look like the long-torsoed flawless skinny models on the commercial if you have that.

Reality check.

It really upsets me that so many girls have a horrible body image. Commercials tell teenage girls that we need that bra or those panties because you will look more like the flawless, perfect, girl you see on the tv. You feel like you are not beautiful watching these things. The models on the commercial are beautiful to you.

So what is beauty anyways?

Is beauty how you look naked wearing lacy frilly things? Is beauty flawless skin and plump lips? Is beauty having thighs that don't touch? Is beauty the idea of weighing under 100 lbs? What is beauty!?!

Beauty is your personality. It is your smile, the way you can comfort your best friend when they go through a breakup. Beauty is sleeping in on a saturday lounging on the couch all day and being okay with not dressing up or slathering on a lot of makeup. You have two hands that work, two legs and feet that can walk, a whole complex body that is a beautiful work of art all in its self. WHO YOU ARE IS BEAUTIFUL!

But this part of beauty doesnt get into anybody's head. All they see is the porn that is pasted inside stores in malls, in magazines, in commercials, and on websites. This all gets engraved into a girls head at a young age and it sticks. That young girl says to herself "that woman is beautiful. I need to look like her and be beautiful too."

Now you might be thinking. I don't know that i would call it porn, thats a little exaggerated. Oh really? I'll show you a few pictures here...

Okay, you say. Sure thats a little provocative , but i mean they're selling underwear...

Okay theres a point- but here are some clothes and perfumes and makeup porn too.

If you want to sell a sweater or underwear do it on a mannequin. Now i know, models have to have a job too, and thats just how it works. But you can do things respectively and not look like you're stripping for the camera.

so theres that..

But you know what really really PISSES ME OFF?!?

These women were in the plus size area of the target lingerie section online.

plus size

plus size

Can anybody tell me why this is plus size? This is normal to me.

It all just makes me upset really. Our image of what is beautiful has completely been fucked up by media.

And it really, truly upsets me.

Do you remember when the most beautiful woman in the world was your mother when you were little? you wanted to grow up to be just like her? now who do you want to look like? How do these pictures make you feel?

you dont need to change a single thing about yourself. Those women are so fake.

i don't know where i was going with all of this...

But all i have to add is this.

You are really, truly a beautiful person. Boy or girl. You are BEAUTIFUL as you are, and never let anybody including yourself tell you otherwise.

visit this site every day. It will remind you.

www.operationbeautiful.com

love yourself. please.

Christmas time.

I sit here in the living room with my new laptop keyboard newly installed because 10 of my keys on my macbook went kaput. it is terribly terribly hard to do anything on a computer when the following keys don't work:

2, 3, w, e, s, d, x, c.

So for a while i was copying and pasting those keys, which got very tiring very quickly.

Anyways, if you see the title above im going to blog about christmastime tonight.

To my left is my christmas tree- not lit but with childhood memories and shiny ornaments hanging from the branches. We have a fake one with the lights already built into the tree which is nice and saves us a lot of time when it comes to decorating it.

In front of my my mother is sitting with her laptop in her lap, planning for her trip to the florida keys for my parents' anniversary vacation, and sipping her beer slowly. (she has been working on the thing for an hour and a half now.)

To my right is my father on the living room computer listening to a conversation of a bunch of guys talking about im not sure what. I do know its something having to do with the weather. He's looking out for the big snow storm we might get christmas day.

My brother is upstairs showering. Nothing else to say there.

This tends to be how my weekend or breaks work. Everybody goes to their separate computers and don't talk. I kind of wish we were together more, but at least we're all alive and well and have each other to complain to every once and a while.

11:02 pm.

I think I am going to go upstairs and tuck myself into bed and cuddle with my dog.

Will post later.

:)

11:33 pm.

Hello there :)

I wonder if anybody comes across my blog. Granted- I only have 2 posts up, but if you ever read an entry please leave a comment saying hi! :)

Anyways,

i had a snow day today. So exciting. I also got a new phone last night. its really nice- the LG Cosmos touch. i'm still getting used to everything, but its really nice, and easy to navigate.

Nothing much to update on at the moment.

My dog is snoring and twitching. Must be dreaming about running or something.

I wonder if dogs dream? They must.

Good night.

With love, Hannah

1:43

And so i sit here in study hall with homework i could be doing, but choose not to do.
Its funny, really. How we prioritize different things.
Like right now i am thinking that homework is on the bottom of my list, where really it should be up there near the top of it along with brushing my teeth, or eating breakfast.

But when it does get down to the time where homework is my first priority, i prioritize that too.
I go through a while process.

What classes do i have early in the day?
Mass communications, English, Math, History
What classes can i get other homework done for my later classes in?
English, History
Who can i get things from if i "dont get it"?

So those go first. OF course you have to narrow that one down too, dont we?

Mass communications- Study for quiz. Was i paying attention to things in class? Kind of, i listened to the first part but then Ariel and I started having our little side conversation- but i did tune back in 5 minutes before class ended. Do i get a pretty good grasp on what we're talking about? Yeah, i mean its final cut pro, we have used it a few times so im familiar with how to set my scratch and the keystrokes.
So that goes down to the bottom of my list because i listened in class- where i had to have grasped something between the doodle of the cat and the conversation about Chipotle with Ariel. I am already pretty familiar with the whole final cut pro thing, so im covered.

Then the list goes on and on and on.

Honestly- nothing usually gets done. Unless its something really important, like if i'm right on the line between a B and a C and i need the few extra points my homework gives me. Otherwise, i gurantee after school will go something like this:

3:45- get home and sit on the couch "I am tired from school, lets have a snack and watch one show because i have lots of homework."

4:30- one episode of mythbusters or what not to wear later "Just one more, i will be able to get Geometry out of the way quickly because its just one side of the work sheet. I can get that done between 5 and 6:30 and after dinner i can work on more"

5:15- i glance at the clock and the next episode has come and gone and my dogs a little hyper. "ill go play with the dog outside, get some fresh air for my brain, the do the homework"

5:18- back inside "Okay, homework time. I'll just get a glass of water and check my phone."

5:21: Texting friends about their latest crush while sitting at the desk with homework in front of me, and doodling on the side of it

6:00- Dinner prep. " i wonder what moms making for dinner, i hope its good. Maybe it will be spaghetti- i havnt had that in forever"

6:03- go downstairs and talk to parents about something random until dinner is done

6:30- dinner is done and eaten. Parents ask about homework "Yeah i did most of it in study hall today (lie), i only have a few more pages of latin (lie), i can get it done later tonight (LIE!)"

6:45- shower

7:15- check social networking cites, and get sucked into youtube.

9:00- "S**T!!! Its already like 9:00? Okay, just one more shaytards video."

9:17- Okay- homework.

11:45- bed

6:30- do it all again.



Yeah, not much homework getting done here.

2:02

Class is almost over, so i think i will go ahead and edit this and act like im doing something productive. Ahh, who am i kidding? I'm going on igoogle and im going to play asteroids or flood.

Hello world!

Hi! :)
So I have done this blog thin a few times and have a tumblr that is centered around quotes.

i like quotes.

Anyways, i want ti write a post about a blog called presence and the entry never been kissed.

First things first:
Presence. Ohmygawd. I love this thing. And i love a few other things called we stop hate and operation beautiful (google them!)
I have lately been really into the whole "You are beautiful" and "Don't hate yourself or others" and "You are amazing" type of thing. Mainly because a year ago i hated myself.

I hated my odd lack of eyebrows
I hated my weird personality that made me stick out
I hated how i was bigger than my 100 lb friends
I hated how i was always pushed around.


But i learned to love.
Now:
I love my little eyebrows, it gives me character, and my glasses frame my face anyways.
I love my weird personality. Why be fake and not who i am? You can love me, you can hate me, or you can just ignore me.
I love how i have curves. So what if American Eagle and Aeropostale shirts don't fit me? So what if im not a size 00 pant. You can take me as i am, or o about your business.
I love how i was pushed around. It made me stand up for myself and realize that i don't have to be passive and ignored. I deserve to be noticed.


I guess that whole thing is that i have grown since june of this year, and i cant wait until the first of 2011 comes around and its a whole new year of loving the skin i'm in, and who i am as a person.

Now about the never been kissed subject. Neither am I. And you know what? I'm proud. I loved reading the comments. There is NOTHING to be ashamed of because I haven't been kissed. So what? I will eventually, and with a boy i love and who respects me.


Anyways. I'm Hannah. Nice to meet you.